The Road Back

I would love to say something profound here. I just don't have it in me, I am not that kinda person. Here I am just going to tell my story. Document my road back to health and an all around happier me. 

It has been a hard few years for me. I feel bad for complaining. I think of how awful some people have it both in their childhood and in their adult life, and how fortune it I am to have everything I do. Yes I have had things happen to me that I wouldn't wish on anyone, but I have been blessed too.

It has been a 2 year 7 months since I found out I had PCOS (January 2011), 5 years 2 months (May 2008) from my first pregnancy and miscarriage and 2 year 8 months from my second ending in an ectopic pregnancy and an emergency surgery that left me with one less fallopian tube. After all this, a full year of Fertility Treatments, my husband and I were emotionally exhausted.

I have struggled with Food Addiction (compulsive eating) for the last 4 years after these very emotional life events leading me to gaining over 150 lbs. in just about 2 years. Its so much more then what everyone thinks;"There is no such thing as Food Addiction, just stop eating!","Your just fat and lazy, but the food down!". I have come to find it is so much more then that. Its a drug, the most dangerous kinds because we have to use it to live... literally.

I have tried all kinds of diets (and pills). Most pre-made meal diet plans are to expensive for most everyday people, some diets are unrealistic, and some are confusing. For the last few years I have tried (some times more successfully then others) to stick to a Gluten-Free and Sugar-Free life style and a eating plan based on the Food Addicts Anonymous guild lines. I have lost 30 lbs. (and counting) since putting my head down and deciding I NEED to make a life style change or I may never get better. Since I was diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome), which is a condition in which a woman has an imbalance of a female sex hormones, which has lead me to have trouble getting pregnant and trouble loosing weight, I knew I needed a BIG life stye change. PCOS, gone untreated can lead to Diabetes. While being over weight can cause PCOS, mine isn't totally caused by that. BUT loosing the weight is my best chance to get control of the PCOS and starting a family.

This blog starts my road down Kaiser's Medical Weight Loss Management with Optifast.

Heaviest Weight: 355 lbs.
Start of Program Weight: 321 lbs.
Personal Goal Weight: 200 lbs.
 (At 6'2" the suggested "ideal body weight" is 165-185 lbs.)
Current weight: 321 lbs.  
Pounds Lost: 34 lbs.  
Pounds To Go: 121 lbs.